I know it’s been a bit.
I had to deal with the death of my puppy and due to the way she passed, the memories that it brought up of my little boy dying.
It was rough.
I went to New York for a day to get away from my sad. It killed my back but was great for my soul. (Thank you, Emily and Chrysula and McDonald’s. I love you all.) I will write about that trip a bit later, now is not the time.
I also had some changes in my personal life. I’m on a ‘break’ from a friend. Who knows what exactly that means, but I wish her well and will always love her to bits. (I realize it seems like I lose every friend I make, but it’s really just one friend who is on and off. Just so you don’t think I am an individual that can’t maintain friendships. I can.)
She and I are just…well…I truly believe they would always have my back or be there to listen to me if I needed, and know she loves me, which I love and appreciate. She is crazy busy right now and I am HUGELY proud of her and want her to succeed in what she is doing. But…When you update your facebook eleventyhundred times but don’t have time for a few words to a friend? It’s spells out ’they just aren’t that into you’ anymore, if you get my drift.
And I don’t do that kind of friendship. One sided or begging for attention just doesn’t work for me. And really…it wouldn’t for them, either; As much as I love her and miss the friendship.
You know?
So, I just point blank asked if the friendship wasn’t working and if they needed a break.
And like I said..while they’ll always be there for me if I need them, I could almost feel the relief pour through the screen.
So, that’s that, I guess.
I’m good, though. Who knows where it will go, anyway.
I have a LOT of good things that have happened lately.
For one, I was quote in The New York Times. It’s a small quote but as the daughter of a career-long newspaper man I am over the moon happy. (It will also be in this Sunday’s edition, I believe.)
And…
I am hesitant to share this news because well…I don’t want ANY misunderstanding that I loved my puppy Pinkie with every ounce of love I had to give.
But…
My arms aren’t empty anymore.
My parents couldn’t stand watching my pain over Pinkie anymore and they bought me a new little Maltese.
I wanted to name her Merciful and call her Mercy because that is how I feel but the boys didn’t like it. So, I named her “Lady”. I figure I already have a little “Bug”, I might as well have a “Lady”.
And we ALL genuinely love, adore, and worship our new little blinking cotton ball with all our hearts. I’ve only had her 3-days and I would do anything for her.
She loves her mama and I love her.
I hope you all can be happy for me.
Because while I still tear up and ache for the puppy we tenderly buried in my back yard, my heart beats for the warm little fuzzball curled up asleep on my pillow by my ear.
For this moment, I am happy.
And that is enough.
I am so glad you got a new puppy! It’s not a negation of love for the other puppy at all, but an affirmation of how wonderful it was to have that puppy. Love that puppy up!
I am so thrilled for you! Congrats on the new bundle of furry joy. It’s all about the love and snuggles.
I’m so glad for you!!!!!
Good for you! I have been thinking of you the last several days and hoping you had found some peace. I am so glad you have.
I am so glad you got another puppy. I almost suggested it to you before but didn’t.
We had two dogs that escaped on Christmas Eve morning and were hit by a car. My husband found us an older dog that day and we adopted two more within a week.
We just couldn’t stand the quiet. (We had wood floors.)
You will heal a little faster, though you can expect to have days that just looking at your puppy makes you cry.
Honestly, I can’t imagine why people wouldn’t be glad for you…a new pup is not a replacement of Pinkie, but the fulfillment of a long and dearly held wish. Why shouldn’t you have her?
Enjoy her! I LOVE puppies, but cannot do the puppy thing – we like to get a dog who is several years old when an owner can’t keep them anymore. Not out of any noble desire to save the animal world – though I don’t mind that part – but more because all the “work” is already done. We have too many kids to potty train to want to have to potty train a pup, too. I am hankering for a dog…ours died several summers ago – broke all of our hearts. We’ve been casually keeping an eye out, but with so many littles, you have to be super careful if not getting a pup you can train from the start.
Good luck with your sweet new puppy… and try not to ache too much over the friend. What was meant to be will be with that…give yourself a break..
Blessings, Megan
So happy about your new puppy. It sounds like your parents knew just what you needed. I’m sorry about your friend. Unfortunately some people are just not capable of being a friend during difficult times. It’s too bad because they miss out on the blessings that eventually do come out of those times.
That last picture is just too much – makes me want a teenie tiny puppy!
You can call her Lady Mercy.
Something you may want to research is giving vaccines at all once, especially to a young, tiny dog.
Who the heck wouldn’t be happy for you?!
Awww…congrats on your little Lady! She is adorable!! I have a Maltese who will be 15 next month who brings me so much joy. They are the best little dogs, in my opinion. I hope your sweet little puppy helps heal some of your pain.
It takes a strong person to know when they need to walk away from a friendship. It’s something I am not always good at.
Lovely Lady. What a lucky pup to have you as a mom.
XOXO
Your doppelganger.
So happy for you, my friend. You deserve all the unconditional love this little puppy has to offer. <3
Healing is good. :-)
*hugs* I’ve been wondering if perhaps another puppy would be the answer. I know that you aren’t replacing Pinkie in your heart. But to lose one pet… it helps to have another to hold, whether it be one you had from before, or one you got after. We had a rough year a while back where we lost two cats in a matter of months. One was slightly expected but still devastating, the other was just a pure shock. It’s very hard to lose a pet, no matter how long they were in your life.
Lady looks like a sweet girl. I wish you much joy and many years :)
It seems obvious you all love small and helpless creatures. Maybe you should look at fostering toy dogs to be in charge of them more often. You’d be perfect.
Allison,
I tried responding to your very kind comment by email but shucks, it seems like it’s not working. I’m so sorry about that because I really wanted to discuss your comment with you more and what I thought about it. (And some of your others. too). Oh, well…these things happen. I’m sure you’ll write in again. (I should probably warn you that my husband is doing an update to my site and he said that some of my comments might go strait to spam. I sure hope that doesn’t happen to yours!) Have a good week. :) May the kindness you’ve shown come back to you! xo
I’m so glad for you and your new little Lady. I felt for you and then went through it myself. Our Bostie puppy, Oscar, died suddenly last Friday night, and the kids are the ones that found him when they went to take him to outside. Our family just kind of lost it for several days. And also my parents got us a new puppy on Wednesday!! She’s a little Bostie female, named Kitty, lol. And I lost a friend this week, as well. My best guy friend, my brother from another mother, and literally, the best person I know, passed suddenly in his sleep on Thursday morning. I never got to tell him about the dog named Kitty. I’m not writing this for attention, I just think its strange how both of our lives have gone in the same directions for the last week. I’m very excited for you and your puppy. There will never be another Pinky, but Lady can help your family make new memories.
That is an adorable puppy! Your parents rock! Good call on their part!
That’s just what you guys need! Lady couldn’t be cuter!
P.S. you were quoted in the NYTimes????? Will you do a post about that???
Um, amazing! <3
YAY!!!! I am so happy for you! I love you Loralee!
I am just so glad things are looking up.
Oh darling Loralee, she’s BEAUTIFUL! I owe you a giant email but THANK YOU for sharing a tiny bit of your short time in NYC with me. And I went and took the kids to McD’s on your honor on Friday night :). Lady is darling and I can’t wait to meet her! xo
Ohhh, I can imagine her cute puppy smell right now as she snuggles up to you. I can however, do without the “puppy breath”; some love it, some don’t like it so much… ohhh but to look at her. She is definitely a cutie!
So glad that you were able to give this puppy a home. Love her up!
Beautiful. Just beautiful.
(And I like your new layout, too.)
It always gives me pause when someone says a remark about how one should wait to “get over” an event before moving on the the next. Like getting a new puppy makes erases the memory of the one that passed, or getting pregnant again erases that miscarriage.
It doesn’t work that way.
Congratulations on your new puppy. Your parents are awesome. I hope this new puppy will bring you years of joy and happiness. And I’m sure Pinkie is with Bug.
Sorry about the friend, I know how those things go. It’s good you were able to get some closure on it, instead of wondering in the back of your mind, for years. Good for you!
NICE to be quoted by the NYT! Go Loralee!! I am suitably impressed. :D
Love is love is love.. and right now, love is a little blinking cotton ball. Nothing wrong with love, ever. I’m happy for you. Happy happy happy!
Good, good, good, good! This is exactly the right thing to do! God bless you and your little fur ball!
Of COURSE I am happy for you! So glad your arms aren’t empty.
NYC was definitely an adventure I won’t forget–what a whirlwind of craziness! Congrats on the quote in the NYT AND on the beautiful little Lady. She is adorable! Looking forward to seeing you at EVO. (You ARE coming, right?!?)
I am so truly happy for you!! Lady looks like a little Princess!!
Oh, wow. So sorry about Pinkie, so glad that Lady is there.