You remember me, don’t you?
I’m that dorky redhead with OK eyes, a prominent nose, and killer ‘reclaimed bosoms’ that occasionally likes to don ninja masks and dork around online in this space?
I’ve been sitting here staring at this blank screen and blinking cursor for the good part of three hours.
But nothing comes.
The good news is that my mom was recovered enough to go home this week.
The bad news is that I feel like…like…
(You know that ‘Houston’s got a problem’ when you wake up in the morning and your only overwhelming desire in life is for it to be night time so you can go to bed again.)
It’s not wretched or horrible. No one has to talk me down off the ledge or anything. I’m just in a cycle and in burnout mode in most areas of my life.
The fact that I’m feeling human enough to come here and write something about feelings is a very positive thing. (SING WITH ME! FEEELINGS…WOAH, WOAH, WOAH…FEEEEEEEELINGS…) (You all have that song stuck in your head now, don’t you?) (YOU’RE SOOOOOO WELCOME!!!!!!!!)
At least I haven’t lost my sense of humor. ;)
I feel really tired of some things.
I tend to be of the “THAT’S GREAT!” mind set.
I tend to think that people, places and things are automatically good and likeable and supportive and good for me.
And really…I don’t think that is the case if I REALLY sit down and examine them.
Something’s gotta change.
I think it’s time for me to really sit down and evaluate the things that are worth keeping in my life and the things that are not. I expound an enormous amount of energy and emotion and I am not sure that a lot of it is going to the wisest places. I think that it is more than high time to brutally think about the things I deserve and want out of my life and cut out the things that are giving me sucktastic Return On Investment.
Some things just aren’t worth it, you know?