Midterms have arrived.
Parent teacher conferences have been attended.
Here is the thing.
I am just not sure my children are suited for a traditional classroom environment.
It has taken a lot (more than you can know, really) for me to get to the point that I am saying this.
I don’t really want to go into details as to why.
I do not talk about my older children online very often because as they get older I fiercely guard their privacy. Middle school is hard enough without your not-unknown-in-the-place-you-live mother blogging about you, you know?
We are not huge fans of our middle schools here, for various reasons.
My kids are not doing well.
Especially our 6th grader.
I often think, “I have no idea what to do and what else to try. I can’t go to the school and sit with him all day to MAKE him pay attention in class!”
Maybe I can.
It means that despite my adament stance that I. would. never. consider. it…we are THINKING about MAYBE homeschooling the boys until high school.
We are looking into the K12 program. This one is in the lead because there is a TEACHER involved. Because my biggest concern (aside from organization, space, destroying the future of my children and going futsnucking insano) with homeschooling is that I do not possess a rounded enough brain and skill set to help my children learn what they need to know.
Am I smart?
Yes, I am.
In some areas I am brilliant, actually.
But as the counselor that gave me an 8-hour IQ test in college after I was having terrible times grasping complex musical theory told me, “According to these tests you are either off the charts brilliant like we rarely see or you are as dumb as a post. But don’t worry…the dumb as a post thing is mainly due to the gaping holes in your education since you skipped 3rd grade!”
(Oh, well…it could have been worse. When I sat there, shaking and sick before getting my results because they said, “OH…UM…I think we need to pull in more people into this meeting”, I was totally convinced they were going to tell me that due to my utter inability to grasp mathematical concepts they were going to tell me I should have been classified as Mentally Challenged and that no one had caught it during my youth.)
(You think I’m kidding, don’t you?)
It was a horrible moment and I would really rather not have my kids walking around with gaping holes in anything, let alone their education.
I just don’t want to take this on alone as the instructor. No WAY could I do it. ASSIST in it, of course, but full-on teach?
No, no, NO.
I doubt I can do this.
But…I had doubts I could be a Parent Organization President, too. And I ended up helping to build that organization and other programs up and served as President for almost 4-terms.
(And I did a good job, y’all.)
I am not sure WHAT is going to happen, but I would love any and all feedback you have. Links, resources, best practices, what works and doesn’t for you if you homeschool, blogs, ANYTHING. (Other than telling me that I am a sucky failure as a parent because really, that would not be overly helpful). ESPECIALLY if it involved the K12 program.
(If you could leave them here instead of Facebook or Twitter I’d be grateful. ONLY because it’s easier to come back and refer to if they aren’t scattered around.)
**EDIT: THANK you for the thoughts on charter schools. We have done that and while great, it is not a current option, nor is private school. Tutoring is a maybe but really, I am looking at a homeschool situation.