There is an audition at BlogHer for a mom blogger reality show called “Project Mom”, and I’m crazy enough to think that I’d be an excellent candidate for it***
(What do YOU think about this idea? )
Now for the tough part of the application.
They want to know who I am.
What sets me apart?
What is my story?
It’s an interesting question. I’ve been trying to find “me” my whole life. To be comfortable in my own skin, my own story and with who I am. It’s been a long journey and one that continues to challenge me.
My name is Loralee Choate, and my story is about loss.
(TOTAL downer answer, I know. But wait till the end of the story, dudes!)
My losses are considerable.
I lost my son. When Matthew died my heart broke so hard I thought it stopped along with my son’s. BUT I SURVIVED.
I lost a marriage. A story familiar to so many people. I was too young, too poor, just too…TOO.
I lost my plan to be a professional opera singer but I got to become a SAH mom and a blogger instead.
I lost my religion. A big deal for anyone but a *really* big deal in Utah. But I gained a sense of peace.
I lost the normal shape/function of my leg because of a near-fatal blood clot. But I learned to finally love them.
I lost half my body weight. Being obese caused a lot of heartache but it also gave me my sense of humor as a coping mechanism.
So, yes…my story is about loss and how it has changed and shaped me.
BUT is also about how I have survived!
What I have done to kick that loss in posterior and triumph to come out on the other side. I may come out a little (or a lot) worse for wear, but I ALWAYS make it through, even if by the skin of my teeth.
These losses of mine continue to challenge, come up, throw curve balls at me and shape me EVERY SINGLE DAY.
With the exception of loosing my son, I’m grateful for the loss I’ve had.
Because somewhere along the path of fighting my way through it all?
NOW if only I could lose my hormonal, PMS-driven case of EMO that’s making me do weird things like incessant Lifetime channel watching, craving peanut butter on cheese slices and pretty much sobbing at EVERYTHING while curled in the fetal position throwing chocolate at myself.
***Thanks for your opinions, dear readers. I welcome all of them. I need to be clear I am just THINKING about this. I have very little information and want to get a WHOLE LOT MORE INFO and thought before I’d do anything. This is just to get an interview. Whether or not I would actually go through with it depends on many factors that I just don’t know yet. But at least I know I really respect the creators so that makes me at least want to throw my hat in the ring! Thank you so much for your concern! xo)