There is something you should know about my personality. I know this might shock you but I am emotionally driven and passionate as hell.
When I do something?
I DO IT.
Very little is half-assed about me. (Uh…except my ACTUAL ass. Dude. My pants fall down. It’s embarrassing. If anyone would like to be a living rear-end donor for me I will TOTALLY take you up on it.)
I burn fire hot. (This can be GOOD.)
I freeze frigid cold. (This can be NOT SO GOOD.)
I can change my mind and my mood faster than you can complete the sentence you’re speaking. (This can be GOOD AND BAD.)
And that, my friends?
Can happen happen in one syllable.
One flutter of an eyelid.
Or, you know…one case of identity theft and one discovery that the FRONT END OF MY CAR WAS MANGLED BY SOME COWARDLY HIT-AND-RUN PHUCKWAD.
It was too much for one 24-hour period for me.
I got through the phone calls and fear and pissed off GRRR! When I discovered my bank account was over drawn and the theft had occurred, but I could.not.take.my.car.
Not when I JUST GOT THE BODY WORK TOTALLY REDONE IN DECEMBER AFTER 2.5 MONTHS WITHOUT IT.
So…after proclaiming to all my Internet world that I was giving it up, I fell off the “Diet Coke Wagon”.
I am very honest with my short comings, when I fail, where I can improve, when the fault is mine. And I usually cop to them, as much as it makes me blush and feel stupid. (In case you are wondering? YES, I feel pretty stupid and my face is purple writing this). I thought I was ready and could do this but holy freaking COW was that an utterly brutal 36 hours. There was stuff that was just a cherry on top that I can’t go into online.
Diet Coke is one of my top coping mechanisms and well…I wasn’t far enough into the game that I could do it. (Or as my husband says, “didn’t WANT to do it.”.)
I totally failed.
I was TOTALLY half-assed.
I suck.
I suck.
Oh, and did I mention that I SUCK?
Only 2 days in and there I was, slurping down a 44 oz-er in my car like it was going to save and protect me from the very demons of hell. Or, at the least, a viewing of Twilight. (Sorry…not a fan.)
So, my plan now?
Get my credit fixed.
Get my car fixed.
Warily eye the Diet Coke thing again.
I know I let a lot of people down and I am not only embarrassed, but I’m sorry.
I’ve already gotten the “I am so disappointed in you” lecture from Jon (and way more “I’m praying for you emails” of the snooty kind) and both of those suck, so…
Yeah.
Sorry.
:(
phuckwad?!?!?! I love it!! Thanks for the laugh even though it was at your expense. Sorry…:/
You have nothing to be sorry for, girl! If I had your day, or even half of it, I’d probably be reaching for 44 ounces of something worse than diet soda – come on! You should want to give up the diet coke for you, not for your readers or anyone else. You don’t owe anyone an apology for swigging some soda, even on a good day. This is why I don’t do resolutions or announce that I’m trying to conquer my addictions. Because once I announce it, someone will be waiting for me to fail. Someone will be watching and will never let me forget it. And yes, that someone for me is probably my husband, Mr. No Addictions of Any Kind So He Is All Smug.
If you want to give it up, then do it for you, but don’t beat yourself up. And DO NOT apologize to anyone but yourself. You owe us nothing. I’m just so impressed that you survived such a crazy day. Here’s hoping it’s nothing but good stuff from now on.
I’m just embarrassed.
Usually I announce because well…it usually WORKS. Having the accountability has made all the difference in the past.
Just not this time. :S
(I’ll have some time under my belt next time though. Will not repeat this. Gah!)
Poor God, I can see it now, angels in heaven giving the prayer list report…(gabriel speaking)” We continue to get inundated with the whole Hatian disater, many still praying for world peace, starving children in Africa, o and yes there is that blogger with the coc addiction”..subtle cough from Micheal…low whisper to gabreil ,”that would be coke,diet coke, you know the soda…..
Seriously people get a clue I know God tells us to counsel with him in all things and if you find yourself praying to God for Loralee please pray that she will find comfort on those days that are comfortless or that butterlump will continue to have good health and outlive his parents and bring them much joy, or that God will give her strength to continue to face the heartaches and struggles of the world but do not triffle with Gods time with matters such as a temporary slip with the diet coke demon.
Loralee, firstly, you are fabulous. Secondly, I cannot wait to bump into you at BlogHer.
Thirdly, I’m a Coke Zero girl myself. Also just stopped, because like you, saw the addiction, and other patterns I didn’t like. I’ve given up and started again more than once. This time feels like it will stick, deeper motivation than simple health (why is that never enough?). But I’ll let you know if someone steals my life and hits my car. Because I’ll be hitting you up for some commiseration and off-the-wagon venting. Fourthly, dying to read the weird prayer post. Sigh. I hope they are not my lot.
It’s not about the diet coke. It never is. You can do it. And you will.
Well, it’s okay that you fell off the Diet Coke wagon because tomorrow is another day to start fresh. And rather than saying “I’m going to give up Diet Coke forever.” Just say “I’m giving up Diet Coke tomorrow.” and take it one day at a time.
I hope you’re able to get your ID theft and car straightened out without too much trouble, what a horrible thing to happen to you.
Good idea – go halfway and switch to Coke Zero for now. As everyone has said, it’s not booze or drugs or anything that gets in the way of life (except for the having to pee so much thing) so don’t hit yourself over it. From the pics it looks like you could use some.
And the plants? Kind of like the trunk of our car whenever I visit the nursery. Quite often, because so much dies here in Vegas after planting. Oh well, I keep those places in business.
drug addiction is really a very bad problem of the society, it destroys the life of a person-:~
drug addiction kills that is for sure, everyone should be more concerned on the war on drugs.~’
drug addiction is a menace to the society, it destroys lives and it destroys the community -“
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I’d have to give blessing with you here. which is not something I typically do! I relish reading a post that will create folks suppose. Also, thanks for permitting me to talk my mind!