*Edited to include update

I was just in the stupidest car accident known to mankind.

I hit a pole IN THE MIDDLE OF EFFING NOWHERE.

No one was with me, thank goodness.  Jonathan and I had (had being the operative word here) a 8 hour rehearsal today and we were at different locations for the beginning of it so we drove separately. Long story short, I was turning around to go to a different parking space, dumped an entire 44 oz. soda in my lap, lost control of the wheel due to, um, ice cold liquid hitting my girlie bits on an already freezing moment. I went to hit the breaks and hit the gas instead and I plowed right into huge, concrete based lamp post.

I hit pretty hard.

My car is totally FUBARD.

There were a lot of lovely women that were on their way into rehearsal who saw the debacle and were lucky enough to get to see my utter breakdown of despair in the parking lot (HI, LOVELY LADIES, SOME OF WHO READ THIS BLOG). Luckily, there was a nurse in the group and she verified that I am generally ok as far as broken things.

She said I was extremely pale but hello! I always look like that. The police and the fire department came (due to the huge amounts of fluids my car dumped out on the parking lot) and they all advised me strongly to go to the hospital to get checked out since the car is really banged up.

As I am in increasing amount of back and neck pain, I concur.

So, I’m just here posting and passing time while I wait  for Jonathan to finish taking his dad home after towing our car and we’re going to the ER. I am going to have one hell of a case of whiplash, I can tell.

Yay.

I am glad that I didn’t hit another person, that I am not seriously hurt and know things could be worse.

Still…

2009 has totally rocked my world, y’all.

*UPDATE

I went to the hospital and got treated. Nothing is broken but I am going to have pretty bad muscular goo and pain for awhile. It was emotional because I was right across the hall from where Matthew died and I could see right into the trauma bay. Everything was the same. Even the ugly patterned curtains and green linoleum. I am fairly proud of the way I handled it, though. So…there is that, right?

I got a shot of morphine and went back to choir practice (I know, but seriously, we have 4 rehearsals till our performance, I missed last week because of being really ill and the thought of having to be in bed AGAIN on a Saturday was making me sob.  Besides, it won’t REAAAALY start hurting until tomorrow.

The loaded me up on drugs, but had a severe allergic reaction to the anti-inflammatory they gave me. I am very allergic to Ibuprofen but we were hoping that I could still take Naproxen as getting the swelling down really speeds up healing. NOPE. It was pretty scary for a little bit but I had an inhaler and took a mega dose of Bynadryl and am starting to be able to breathe again. Whew. Hopefully, the eye swelling will go down soon.

As for the car itself…we are worried it will be totaled. We are upside down on our loan to about $1,000. It’s not a lot to many people but it is a whole bunch of money for our family. We have the insurance adjuster calling us on Tuesday and so we’ll just hold our breath until then. It’s not driveable at all, so it also leaves me without a car.

I had my camera in the car but it was dying and I only got one shot off.It doesn’t look too bad in this photo but it’s the most flattering angle. If I was just looking at it from this side I would have a lot more confidence and peace of mind that they aren’t going to total our car .

The side is a lot worse. There is literally a huge ass hole and the area above the tire was basically ripped in half. The front part of the car was literally hanging down on the ground but Jon picked it up and kind of stuck it back in place. The force was so hard that the OTHER side of the fender was dislodged and is popped out and destroyed, it just didn’t make it into the frame. The brown stuff is what the fire department put all over the fluids that poured out of my car.

The lamp post is fine, but we made sure to get its license and registration. :)

And yes…it is right next to the cemetery.

Awesome.

THERE IS A SILVER LINING: I will get more physical therapy and we have great auto insurance. SO, hopefully I won’t have more medical bills. We want to trade in our car soon and we had some grill work, light socket replacement and other stuff that had to be replaced anyway that would likely cost as much as our deductible. It also means I will finally get my cracked windshield wiper container replaced. As long as they don’t decide to total it, we will actually be ok , car wise. Hopefully, we’ll be able to trade it in for the van we need soon.

It’s been a really long day. I’m worn out and feel like hud, and my meds are kicking in, so I am going to sign off.

I’m praying the next few days aren’t as sucky as I am thinking they’re going to be.

Later, gator.

I keep thinking about the radio job that I didn’t get. Leaving my husband and the personal issues that are involved with it out of the equation, I remain so incredibly bummed out about not getting to work in that medium.

I loved doing it.

I have gotten dozens and dozens (and probably more then that, actually) of emails and Direct Messages on Twitter telling me that I should start my own show on Blog Talk Radio.

It would not be nearly as cool, I’d be running it myself and it’s also one more thing that I do without getting paid, but I honestly just LOVE everything about audio work and feel that I would be very good at it.

At this point it’s something I am considering very seriously but need some HONEST feedback.

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT ME STARTING MY OWN INTERNET RADIO SHOW?

Would you listen to it?

What would make it more attractive to you?

What KIND of show and format do you think would jive well with my personality? Would you like me solo, with a set co-host, rotating guests, questions and answers, advice, what?

I don’t know if it will happen as it is a lot of work and commitment but I have had enough jealousy even trying to listen to my husband’s show that I know I really want to be doing SOMETHING with the medium because I truly love it.

I’d appreciate any feedback you (and anyone else you know) can give me. What do you think?

P.S. Health update for our family: I am still uber sick. So is the baby. No real improvement for either of us. Christopher’s pink eye is better but now he is sick like the rest of us. James and Jonathan are quite a bit better.

I’m flinging a list at you to update on just a few things of the things that have been going on that I can actually write about. (I know most of them suck. I don’t want to whine perpetually on you all, it’s just how things are right now.)

1. Right now Jonathan is at the emergency room with our son, James. He cut his hand on a broken glass and he will definitely need stitches. Blood was everywhere and it looked BAD. Poor guy.  He is a trooper. It’s killing me to be here at home but I am sick and so is the little butterball and he shouldn’t be in an ER. And with everything we’ve gone through lately, I don’t think going into the same ER that my son died in with my sick little baby would be a good choice right now.

**UPDATE: He had to have 6 stitches that pretty much takes up the ring finger of his dominant hand. It looks like a C and I’ve threatened to call him “Coraline”. Or FrankenFinger.  I told him to take comfort that he can now say he has “an old dishwashing injury”. ;P

Oh, and Christopher was just sent home from school this morning and  looks like he has elephantitus of the eyeball. Gotta love Pink Eye, people.

2. We’re all sick. I have other stuff going on but have now caught the raging HUD that has consumed everyone else. I also have raging PMS on top of it, which hardly seems fair. It caught me unawares. Again. I have experienced Mother Nature’s “Precious Posies of Procreation” since I was 12 years old. At this point I am kind of a pro at it, so you would think that I would not be surprised by my period EVERY SINGLE FLIPPING MONTH.

And yet?

I am.

The sheer number of times I have woken up and exclaimed, “OH! So THAT’S why I suddenly sprouted four heads and DESTROYED everyone in my path with raging rays of BITCHITUDE yesterday! Duh!” is just embarrassing, people.

It hasn’t helped AT ALL lately.

Just sayin’…

3. Aaron’s doctor appointment went so much better than expected. The kid is still monster sick and so miserable, but his oxygen levels are so much better than we thought and HIS LUNGS ARE GOOD THUS FAR!  You’d never know it to listen to him hacking but it’s true. Also, even though he is really congested, the mucous is clear which means there isn’t an infection.  We still have to watch him really close and continue doing all the things we have been,  but a huge weight of worry has been lifted from my shoulders. Now I just have to get everyone well so I can concentrate on some other things that need to be taken care of.

4. As of Wednesday, Jonathan has a part time job on a local radio show.

The job I hoped would be available and that I have been drooling over for last several months.

The job I really, really wanted.

Yeah. That one.

I’m editing this because well…it really should just be left at that.

5. I have THE MOST AWESOME BLOGGING THINGY COMING UP!  I can’t wait to spill the beans on it, but I can’t yet. Let me just say it will be a huge help for us and I want to make out with BlogHer for hooking me up with it. I needed this shot in the arm of happy like you can’t imagine. I heart BlogHer with the power of a thousand burning suns.

6. I have had a weird craving for Hostess Snowballs lately.

7. I’ve seen and talked to friends a lot this week. Before we all got REALLY sick, we were just “sick” and so instead of going out to dinner and a movie as planned, my friends Bridgy and Karen came for dinner and to talk, which was great. They have been friends for a long time and I love them.  I had lunch on Saturday with my friend, Kim, and her group of girlfriends. I didn’t stay long because I was way too worried about Aaron, but having real food and a break was incredibly nice. She (prairiemama) also has a fabulous Etsy shop. (She made me THE most adorable baby sling for Aaron. I’ll write about it later) and all the ladies went and cooed over her cute things in stock. She posted these PRISTINE, handmade seersucker jumpers from the 1940′s and since they were really reasonable ($12.00) I splurged and bought all three because I couldn’t pick which one was cuter.

They were made for my little baby, I swear.

SEE?

I can’t wait to see him in them.

8. My sister walked in to a neurologist appointment and came out with a Multiple Sclerosis diagnosis.

9. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY FRIEND, SANDI!

I know I posted this yesterday as an edit to my post, but there has been so much going on I missed her birthday and yes…I am flogging myself for it even though she called me a dork and told me to stop it.

She’s been so lovely to me and I feel like a Fire Swamp dwelling troll about it.

In fact, I should just have that chick from The Princess Bride follow me around for a set period of time as punishment as I run errands yelling ‘BOO! BOO!! RUBBISH!!! FILTH!!!! SLIME!!!!! MUCK!!!!!! BOO!!!!!!! BOO!!!!!!!!! BOO!!!!!!!!!!!! BOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

(And hey, according to this website she would totally fit in at WalMart, apparently.)

And finally…

10. I love Glee! I love Glee! I love Glee! I love Glee! I love Glee! I love Glee! I love Glee! I love Glee! I love Glee! I love Glee! I love Glee! I love Glee! I love Glee! I love Glee! I love Glee! I love Glee! !!!!!!!!

If you aren’t watching it, YOU SHOULD BE. I’ve watched this clip eleventyhundred times this week.

It makes me happy.

And heavens knows there is not enough of THAT around here lately.

I’m working on getting a lot more of that round these here parts in the near future.

:)