Every time I get a moment to curl up with my laptop I fall asleep in seconds due to exhaustion and being on a lot of drugs, so I have been working on this post for an entire week.
I’ve gotten so many lovely emails, comments, and things in the mail that I need to say how freaking THANKFUL I am to everyone. I love you all. I have also gotten a lot of different questions, so I thought I’d do an FAQ of the last very busy week. It was such a sweet, emotional time I’m not publishing a birth story, I want to keep that between my husband and myself, so this is as close as it gets.
(Very handy-dandy universal pacifier clip made by Kerflop, ADORABLE cap courtesy of Chris of Chris Knits.)
This is long due to photos, so click here if you want to continue reading.
How is the baby doing?
He is SPECTACULAR. He is perfectly healthy, he is adorable and so mellow and even tempered thus far. I could spend hours and hours just staring at him. I hate having him out of my arms. He has the sweetest little spirit ever. His skin is soooo soft and wrinkly and he has the softest, most velvety looking eyes you have ever seen.
I love him. I love him. I love him.
How was the delivery and your recovery? Are you getting enough help?
Ugh. It was long, tricky and hard.
I went to my doctor appointment on the 19th at 1:00 pm. I was not doing well at all. All my tests nosedived and I wasn’t getting my strength back from the previous labor that went nowhere. Everyone decided it wasn’t going to get any better by waiting so my OBGYN sent me upstairs to be induced. I had some issues during the delivery but all ended up ok and I delivered Aaron at 10:17 pm.
It was a very different delivery than my other kids in a lot of ways. The biggest change is that instead of having a lot of family and friends there it was just Jonathan and I at the hospital. I was worried it would be a lot for him to handle emotionally and physically, but when the time came, I didn’t want anyone there but him and he did a great job supporting me through it.
My recovery is just taking too long. I REALLLLY hurt my back during the delivery and it isn’t recovering well. I start physical therapy for it tomorrow. My levels are still very low. I feel like crap, but I have also never been so happy. I have had great family members supporting me and my friend, Michelle has come by almost every single day with some little something to make me happy. She’s amazing and the little one is nuts about her.
Did you end up getting an epidural?
(Man, I am so damn sexy. Seriously, everyone wants a piece of this HAWTNESS. For reals.)
I tried. I really did. It started out ok.
Then it got worse.
And then worser.
I labored medication-free on Pictocin for 7 1/2 hrs. (Pictocin makes your contractions more painful.) I progressed about a centimeter an hour. It was pretty horrible and got to the unbearable point when I was at 7.
If I had been progressing faster I might have been able to do it, but 2-3 more hours of contracting and THEN pushing? No. I couldn’t take it anymore and I got an epidural. (By which point there was lots and lots of screaming at the top of my lungs, crying, cursing and mucousing occurring. It’s beyond mortifying to recollect, actually.)
And all was right with the world. My little family seemed much more complete.
Did you get your nursery finished?
Nope. But there is hope on the horizon. My fabulous, talented and LOVELY friend, Karen is AMAZING. She has such a knack for all things artistic and I asked if she could make me some wall art for my nursery. She draws these ninja’s that I am nuts about and she brought them to me on Jonathan’s first day back at work. Her visit cheered me up from the sheer fear of being on my own with the little button all day. Dude, these drawings are SO cute, aren’t they? I LOVE them.
How was Memorial Day?
Memorial day was hard. I cried a lot and so did Jonathan. In some ways it was a much easier day than years past, but I was much more emotional during the day. In a lot of ways, having baby Aaron has made me miss Matthew more, but I have so much joy because of him that everything seems lighter and easier.
How is he sleeping and eating?
He is the most chill, mellow, wonderful baby. I know it can change but for now he is just awesome.
So, how has the baby changed things for you?
I feel like the luckiest girl in the world.
It has changed EVERYTHING.
I cannot believe how happy I am.
I cannot believe how happy my husband is.
I cannot believe how happy WE are.
It isn’t a huge secret that Jonathan and I have had a challenging marriage. We are very different and have been through an awful lot. When there is a baby, Jonathan and I actually work as a team. To be honest, this is not usually how we function, but right now? Things are GREAT. I don’t think we have been this happy since Matthew was born. Actually, we have probably not been this happy EVER.
He is so good with babies, especially his own. Watching him with his son fills me with tremendous joy. He has been so good to me.
I know that this is a honeymoon period and that things could change with me, the baby and Jon and I, but I DON’T CARE. I am just going to be happy and enjoy having this joy and live in the moment. Right now there is nothing on this earth that is more important to me than this baby.
I am completely in love with him. He is the joy of my heart and the light of my life. All my babies have been this way. I am completely besotted and nuts about them.
I guess this says a lot about me: I keep falling hard for short, fat, bald guys! Ha ha ha ha!
But you said that Aaron was 21 inches long. That isn’t short for a baby?
And look at his tiny little bird legs and wrinkly thighs! He is NOT a fat baby.
And bald? HARDLY. Check out this hair! Most babies have hair that resembles cat fur but his is so silky and shiny! AND CHECK OUT THE FUZZ ON HIS LITTLE EARS! So, sorry, but he isn’t bald either.
Dude. Way to take all the punch out of my punchline. You kind of suck to interview with, you know that?
Sorry, but I take this job seriously. The press are the gatekeepers of the world you know.
So…are there any other questions your nosiness would like to ask me?
Yes. How is that Aaron weighed 7 lbs. but you have only lost 5 lbs. of baby weight so far? It wouldn’t have anything to do with eating that entire package of Double Stuffed Oreos in two sittings, would it?
Ehem…this is all have to say to THAT question:
Hopefully it won’t be another week until I post again. Thanks for all your support and patience. Love your guts, y’all.