***WEIRDER UPDATE: I ended up not going to the hospital. Due to a very strange set of circumstances that involved The Golden Corral Buffet, KMart and my insurance saying they couldn’t find me to give pre-authorization for an ER visit (and there was no way I could pay for it all out of pocket). So, I went home and crashed until I heard back from them. AND! My fever broke when I was asleep!! So, I stayed home and went right back to sleep again. I slept for 18 hours and while I’m not about to do cartwheels, I feel a lot better. There just seemed no point in going in without a fever and frankly…I have a high deductible that resets in January. It may have been a bad call, but I’m calling the dr. today to explain and make sure it’s ok. Dude, sorry for the drama. I feel a little silly about it all, but I am NOT sorry I didn’t get poked and prodded in a hospital. Shudder.
**UPDATE: I got a call from my doctor and I am going into the emergency room. Apparently, I have a bad kidney infection that they have to take care of in a hospital…it’s beyond pills at this point. Yippee skippee. I have no idea when I’ll be back. It could be hours or days, it just depends, I guess. I’m not really sure what’s going on. Have I mentioned that I really, really, REALLY hate hospitals?? :*(
This is just a short list of what’s going on with me because A: I feel like crap and B: It’s NaMaBloPo (or whatever) and that means that a whole lot of bloggers are posting every single day in November.
It can get pretty overwhelming to keep up with all the reading. I can imagine that everyone is pretty tired of looking opening their feed reader on a Monday and having it scream, “DEAR GOD! WHAT THE HELL IS UP WITH ALL YOUR BLOG READERS SHOVING ELEVENTYHUNDRED POSTS DOWN MY POOR, INNOCENT, FEED-AGGREGATING GULLET EVERY 24-HOURS!? DOESN’T ANYONE CARE THAT THE HOLIDAYS ARE COMING UP AND THE WORLD IS GOING TO BE SUFFERING FROM ENOUGH GLUTTONY IN THE NEXT FEW MONTHS??????!!!!!!!!!! WHY DOES EVERYONE HATE ME SO??!!!! AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! If you need me, I’ll be sitting in the corner trying to fill my emotional scarred soul up by stuffing myself with pre-Thanksgiving pumpkin pie and holiday Krispy Kremes. Sob…”
What the hell was I talking about?
Oh, yes…what’s up with me.
I had another Dr’s appointment on Friday. It was not so great. Like most expectant mothers, the time it takes to find the heartbeat feels like an eternity. On Friday, I couldn’t hear ANYTHING. I waited, and waited, while he kept moving the microphone around and around. Then my doctor started furrowing his eyebrows harder and harder until I almost lept off the table yelling, “WHERE IS THE HEARTBEAT!? WHERE IS IT?!!!!” He said, “No…I found it, I’m just having a very hard time finding a spot without static so YOU can hear it.”
I almost cried with relief.
When he did find it, that “Whoosh, whoosh, whoosh” was one of the most welcome sounds on the planet.
I apologized for my reaction and he said given my history he absolutely understood and he is proud of how I’m holding up under the pressure given everything I have gone through and what’s going on currently. We talked about my shots and that I have about 400 left when all is said and done.
I have to admit, hearing that number made me want to cry all over again.
I also said that I felt that the kidney infection that I just finished a run of antibiotics for might be back and while I didn’t have a fever, I was having a lot of the same symptoms. He took a culture and said he would try to get the results from the lab but it might take until Monday.
Before I left he said, “It is going to be a very long, tough pregnancy for you but I will do everything I can to make it easier.”
He’s great.
Saturday was long.
Really, really long.
Remember the choir that I auditioned for and am really, really happy to be a part of? Yeah, THAT one. It is directed by Dr. Craig Jessop, who just stepped down as the long-time director of The Mormon Tabernacle choir and moved to my town to head up the Music Department at Utah State University.
Last night, we made our debut concert by performing Mozart’s Requiem to a house of 2,000 people.
It was amazing. The soloists brought in were amazing. Everyone sound great.
And there was much rejoicing. (Yeah…)
It was a really long day, though. The holidays are always really busy for musicians. I have four concerts and a caroling group to prepare for. 2 scores and roughly 20 pieces of music to memorize by next week. I had three rehearsals and then the performance on Saturday alone, so I was singing straight from 9 am to 9 pm. I crashed at 11pm and slept in until NOON. When I woke up it wasn’t so bad. Jonathan and I had a nice afternoon driving around, listening to Christmas music and then we went out to lunch.
AND THEN.
FEVER.
A bad fever.
It just keeps getting worse and worse. I don’t have to wait until the labs confirm-I know my kidney infection is back with a vengeance.
I feel like crap in a bag that’s been set on fire and left on someone’s porch.
I’m freezing and burning up at the same time and will be totally surprised if any of this makes any sense to anyone. Pretty soon I’ll probably start striking up converstation with the Care Bears that will be dancing on my celing.
So? Before I start making inappropriate confessions to the internet and reveal all my deepest secrets in a fever-addled fit, I am going to take some Tylanol, curl up in the fetal position and pray that the labs come back Monday so that I can get started on more antibiotics. Then I have to pray that my infection actually goes AWAY this time.
xoxoxo
P.S. I want to say THANK YOU for the wonderful submissions to BlogNosh. I have started plowing through them all and am blown away by some of them. I have to take a reading break until the fever gets under control but I am very grateful and awed by the response.
P.P.S. This was supposed to be shorter. My apologies to your feed readers. Tell them I will buy them some chocolate and liquor them up as an apology.
P.P.P.S. Except for the liquor. I don’t drink. I just figured that the promise of a good boozing would make my apology go further. Please don’t send me copies of “How to win friends and influence people”. I think high school was enough proof that I know jack about applying that in my life.
P.P.P.P.S Good HELL I NEED TO STOP TALKING AND GO TO SLEEP. I have a feeling that I may be slightly embarrassed in the morning. (and I’m not even ON anything. Which is the saddest fact of all….)
tjk says:
llc
i hope that your dr and some good drugs will get you all fixed up
wish we closer to hear you sing
November 17th, 2008 at 1:01 am
Headless Mom says:
Wishing you antibiotics and good sleep!
November 17th, 2008 at 1:13 am
Erin W. says:
Man oh man! You are so much more productive than I think I could ever be! And with a fever, no less! I can barely strike up the urge to get out of bed when I’ve got a bad fever, let alone post a blog. I do hope that you get to feeling better super soon. You’ve had some really rough stuff to live through - certainly more than your share - and I really don’t see you deserving to feel like crap even further.
So, best wishes there.
….And, I don’t think you have anything to be embarrassed about in the morning. ;)
November 17th, 2008 at 1:28 am
Marcie says:
I think you are the most random and hilarious person I have ever met. (read).
Even sick you are funnier than most people on a good day, so let that make you feel better!
Oh, and owie on the shots. I do not envy you, poor thing.
November 17th, 2008 at 1:36 am
180/360 says:
Hoping you feel better soon! There’s nothing worse than being pregnant AND sick. :( Take care… xoxo
November 17th, 2008 at 3:06 am
Mormon Soprano says:
It sounds like your life is certainly an adventure. Congratulations on being a part of Craig’s choir, and best wishes on a healthy pregnancy. - Love, MoSop
November 17th, 2008 at 3:46 am
Missives From Suburbia says:
It’s Monday. Good drugs are heading your way soon and while I’m sad that means the Care Bears will be leaving your side, I hope it means you’ll get some relief soon.
November 17th, 2008 at 7:46 am
Domestic Extraordinaire says:
oh hon, feel better soon! Many HUGS!
November 17th, 2008 at 7:46 am
Mina says:
Fevers are horrible. I hope you get those drugs soon and that they start working fast …
November 17th, 2008 at 9:04 am
martha says:
I hope you feel better soon.
November 17th, 2008 at 9:26 am
sandi says:
MAY I JUST DITTO MARCIE? I AGREE TOTALLY!
November 17th, 2008 at 9:54 am
JoeInVegas says:
OH, all those ps thingies and still no naughty confessions. Oh well, have some Kahlua and go to bed.
November 17th, 2008 at 10:35 am
cartoongoddess says:
Wishing you a speedy recovery and all things good.
November 17th, 2008 at 11:02 am
Camille says:
I’m so sorry you’re sick. Your poor little kidney…
November 17th, 2008 at 11:26 am
Melly says:
Hope you feel better soon. Don’t you love our Dr.? He’s great!
November 17th, 2008 at 12:34 pm
lceel says:
I hope you get better. Kidney infections are a BITCH - and can’t be any better when you’re pregnant, for sure.
November 17th, 2008 at 1:03 pm
Tauni says:
I completely understand the heartbeat scare. After my miscarriage when I got pregnant again, I went in and they struggled getting the heartbeat for like 2 seconds and I was FREAKING out.
I am so sorry to hear about the kidney infection. I hope that you are able to get rid of it this time. When I start to get kidney infections I drink LOTS AND LOTS of the really nasty, organic pure cranberry juice. It is the nastiest stuff you will ever taste that you willingly will pay $7.00 for the small bottle of it. Drinking the 100% cranberry along with the antibotics and then continue the cranberry can really help keep the kidney infections away.
I really am sorry you are struggling with this! I hope and pray you get better soon.
November 17th, 2008 at 1:20 pm
Miss says:
Holy Cow Woman. I hope you are sleeping.
*hug*
November 17th, 2008 at 1:38 pm
Erika Jurney says:
What? Get well — let me know if you need me to come out there and make them give you some good drugs. I can be quite… convincing.
xoxoxo
Erika
November 17th, 2008 at 2:10 pm
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November 17th, 2008 at 2:11 pm
Kitty says:
Take care of yourself and get well soon!
November 17th, 2008 at 2:19 pm
Mom2four says:
Aw, geez!
Wishing you a speedy recovery.
November 17th, 2008 at 2:39 pm
Michelle says:
I’m so sorry! Please let me know if there is anything I can do for you, alright? And I’m serious about that. I live pretty dang close. :)
November 17th, 2008 at 5:06 pm
Sue says:
Sucky! Feel better soon, chica. I will be praying for you!
November 17th, 2008 at 5:25 pm
Angie [A Whole Lot of Nothing] says:
Gah that stinks. Feel better and blog from bed.
November 17th, 2008 at 5:27 pm
Jim says:
Please take care of that infection. Get well and relax. Glad to hear your concert went well at least.
November 17th, 2008 at 9:48 pm
The Over-Thinker says:
Please please get well soon! Sending bladder-infection-free thoughts your way.
xoxo
November 17th, 2008 at 10:20 pm
Heather, Queen of Shake Shake says:
Oh no! Will be thinking of you. Get well soon!
November 17th, 2008 at 10:30 pm
Angella says:
I really hope you’re OK, sweetie. Love you.
November 17th, 2008 at 11:47 pm
Julie says:
My second and third pregnancies were basically just one long kidney infection, so I am sending you all of my sympathy. So much so that I actually had a brutal kidney infection over the weekend. My husband ran out and bought a big jug of cranberry juice and a pregnancy test! He panicked and assumed that I was pregnant again, poor boy was thinking that the new house that we just bought wasn’t going to house the amount of children we have. Take care!
November 18th, 2008 at 2:43 am
Kemi says:
I’m so sorry. I hope your hospital stay is brief and effective.
Kidney infections are bad enough on their own, but throw in a pregnancy, and that’s just inhumane.
*hugs*
November 18th, 2008 at 2:59 am
Kathie says:
Oh no! I hope you’re feeling better by the time you read this, and that your hospital stay is at least short!
November 18th, 2008 at 6:19 am
Maria says:
Feel better! Love ya!
November 18th, 2008 at 12:50 pm
Plain Jame says:
We must be drinking the same water.
I’m hoping you at least got put on an antibiotic…? I’m just a few weeks behind you and have had chronic infections. My Dr says I have to ward off high fevers because it’s dangerous to the fetus. Take care of yourself, lotsa sleep & water…
oR
Eat two cookies and blog in the morning.
November 18th, 2008 at 4:25 pm
Rachael says:
I am glad your fever broke - I hope you are feeling much better soon!
November 18th, 2008 at 5:59 pm
ltycks says:
new reader. i had a kidney infection 2 months ago. thought i would die. i understand.
November 18th, 2008 at 7:56 pm
Holly Decker says:
howdy… recently started reading your blog :)
just wanted to say that i can relate on the hearing of the heartbeat thing… seriously, after i lost our last baby- almost every single appointment is dramatic for me.
that WHOOSH WHOOSH is the best.
hooray :) !
also, i am WAY SUPER jealous that you are in that choir.
SOME people live all my dreams for me!
November 19th, 2008 at 7:37 pm
Alison says:
Hope you are feeling MUCH better. Not to suggest you don’t need the anti-b’s but sleep truly is the best medicine sometimes–if schedules and stress levels can let you sink into that lovely type of unconsciousness where you maintain just enough awareness to know how awesome it is to sleep.
November 20th, 2008 at 9:37 pm