My dad is out of surgery. His heart stopped twice but he is ok. Over all recovery will take months and then, yup. More surgery. Thank you for everything. I turned comments off on the previous post, but honestly…The words you sent have helped. Thank you for understanding it is not so much the rejection (although that would have been icky no matter what) as the subject matter that was rejected.
In short? Thank you for understanding ME.
You are lovely.
(Oooh! Bright spot! I just recalled that I have an entire Pepridge Farms double fudge cake in my freezer! I’m going to take it, a fork and curl in the fetal position.)
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I think if I were on the decision committee, I would have thought that there was no way in heck you could read that all the way through without a huge snotfest. I had a snotfest reading it. Out loud would be agonizing.
Step one to the good with Dad. Remember that many people are praying and sending him healing energy. You too.
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i agree with witchypoo. i can’t imagine having to read it aloud. i just read it today and cried. my husband walked in the door and i had to try to explain to him why i was crying. he doesn’t quite get all the emotions that come with this blogging thing. that we put our joys, triumphs, frustrations, and heartaches out here for others to read. that we feel with those who are hurting despite the fact that we don’t really know them. thanks for sharing matthew with us. and for being open in sharing yourself as well.
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Maybe they felt that it would be too emotional for you to read and get through?
I guess you’re right though, in the end you could know the reasons why but I doubt it would make you feel better. The results are the same.
For the record I understood exactly why you were upset. You were clear that it hurt but the devastation of it was because it was like putting doo doo all over your son and his memory. I haven’t lost a child but it is all too easy to imagine your motivations.
Luv you.
Glad to hear your dad is ok.
Ditto to witchypoo. I remember reading that post. It’s an incredible piece of writing. I felt the raw emotion of it all and it hurt. Thank you for sharing such a tender part of you.
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(((HUGS)))
and lots of them! Sent your way!!!
I love you Loralee.
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If I could send you cupcakes, I WOULD!!!! LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS of them!!!!
love to you and your father.
kari
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I’m glad your dad’s ok. That’s rough stuff to deal with.
And remember, my boyfriend Ian said your post about Matthew was his favorite from the Live Blogging Thingy in February. That means a lot coming from him.
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So glad your Dad is OK. Whew…
Now go eat some cake!
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Fork cake is awesome! Glad your dad is out of surgery. You and he and your family are all in my prayers. *Hugs*
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It always blows ass when someone doesnt understand the absolute importance of our subject matter. BUT! BUT! You submitted it, and for sure it touched somebody who read it. That took guts sister.
Glad your dad is feeling better. And, I like your new place…may have been a while since I’ve spoken, but I’ve been watching you, Wazowski.
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Oh my friend,
I know that some of the most beautiful introspective writing I have done and still do, is about Douglas. But, not unlike what you have experienced, folks find it a tough subject to listen to. And while it is cathartic with me and perhaps even helpful to some, it still seems to be one of those subjects that makes people squirm. Write about it anytime. It is part of your life, your journey and your very soul, and we (the royal we) appreciate your candor and spirit as you write.
I am thankful to hear things are better for your dad. I, like you don’t have much of a hotline these days but I am sending nothing but positive vibes your way and straight on through to your dad.
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I’m sorry to hear about your dad. I pray things keep getting better for him.
Enjoy your cake.
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glad your dad is alright; the recovery time sucks, bug it nests the alternative. Now he can laugh st you for being worried about yelling at him about the plants-that is nice. :-)
Now, the rejection. It sucks, major. But I am proud of you (for whatever that’s worth!) for submitting anything, bug especially what you did. You totally rock!!!!
Now, take a deep breath, binge on that cake and watch some mindless tv.
Hang in there. Your Daddy is going to be fine and so are you. And I am praying for you both.
lceel ‘Uncle Lou’s last blog post..a city boy, no more
Hey, L. I hope tomorrow is a better day. I think that post about Matthew was one of the first posts of yours I ever read. It was, and still is, beautiful and sacred. And nothing’s gonna change that.
P.S. I’m glad your dad is doing better and that he continues to recover.
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I know what you’re going through with your dad. My dad had heart surgery, which failed, and two months later he had to have a triple bypass. The day of the surgery and the weeks of recovery were awful and I remember ending up in a pile of tears on a church pew. I hate crying in public! But he recovered fully and is doing well. You and your family are in my prayers.
PS: Whenever I hear about your dad I always think of Matthew and the awesome eulogy he gave. Your dad rocks.
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Thank you Holly (And everyone.)
My dad is the only one who could possible use the term “curriculum vitae” to eulogize an infant. ;)
oops. “Possibly”
OMG… I had NO IDEA! I am calling you tomorrow to chat.
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I don’t know what else I can say besides I am happy for your dad, and I’m really glad you were able to make your potential “last words” more uplifting. That’s something I fear immensely–having PK leave for work on a sour note, only to find out there was a wreck on the highway on his way into town and he didn’t make it.
And now I will have nightmares.
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I am really happy for the news about your father. As for the key notes thing.. there is something about that I don’t like – I’m not sure. I didn’t submit anything, but since the beginning it’s felt like kids getting chosen for kickball by other kids, and once you start singling people out one-by-one in a group of people who are all there because they do the same thing… people’s feelings are going to get hurt. Now I really don’t like the entire thing because they didn’t choose your post specifically. I don’t know if that’s something we choose to go to or if it’s something we can opt out of for another class.. if it is, I’ll be somewhere else. Because if one post sucks it would be hard for me to not say something.
I’m sorry, Loralee.
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One big step forward. That’s huge. And a relief. And while the road ahead is long and possibly difficult, you should still find cause to celebrate each and every milestone!
PS – Check out my blog today. It’s for you.
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I wandered over from Nilsa’s blog post today and read the post about your son. It’s an amazing post and don’t let anyone else tell you otherwise. I wish I could take away that rejected feeling you have, but all I can say is don’t let a judging committee or anyone else make you feel that way. Your post about Matthew is meaningful, touching and significant.
I hope and pray your father gets better soon. Sending you lots of good thoughts and well wishes.
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Cake and the fetal position.. can be very therapeutic!
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OOps.. meant to add..
glad your dad made it through surgery.
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So glad your dad is doing well.
Lots of hugs and big prayers.
Hope you enjoyed that cake.
Sooooo glad your dad is ok.
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Glad to hear that your dad’s ok – I hope is recovery goes well, but I know it will be an uphill battle.
Found you through Nilsa’s post today – sorry about the rejection, it was a glorious post, absolutely lovely.
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You know what, now I’m totally irate that your writing was rejected too and am not sad one bit that I’m not going to BlogHer now.
Except, well I am, because then I can’t meet you there.
I freakin’ love you. What unbelievably powerful writing.
I’m glad your dad came out of surgery and will be ok. Love and hugs to you.
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SO glad he is OK, and that you will be too.
(HUGS)
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Like so many times in this blogging world, I wish I could reach out and hug you. I wish that hugs took away pain and grief and rejection. I wish that all of us out here that love you in blog land could all absorb a little piece of your crap so that it wouldn’t weigh you down anymore or make you sad…
Glad your dad is doing okay.
Thinking of you, Loralee.
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Sending hugs, prayers, and love your way.
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Great news. I’ve been there, several times now, so I know that kind of waiting and what it does to you. Many prayers, good thoughts, and much healing white light to your dad and your whole family. And your rant? Totally appropriate and actually awesome.
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I’m glad your dad is okay. I hope he heals quickly and easily.
You ate that cake and STILL lost six pounds? So unfair.
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I’m sorry to hear that, its so hard to watch a parent go through that, and its hard on everyone too.
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after ten yrs at the PF… I *must* point out there is no S at the end. it’s just pepperidge farm – lol. and the german choc cake is THA best.
i’m glad your dad came thru ok. my mom did the whole heart surgery in jan and i was terrified. what a long ass day at the hospital…
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I am a dad of two boys with autism, I look to your blog for current info! Thank You!