Thank you for all your thoughts and words from yesterday’s post. I still have very little information and am basically sitting here feeling anxious and worried and kind of nauseated. I thought at this point that I would be able to do something to help. You know, like running around ripping up sheets and boiling hot water and wailing, “I don’t know nothing about birthing no babies, Miss Scarlett!”, or something. That I would be busy, busy, BUSY contributing and helping.
The reality is far different.There is nothing that I can do right now and it is driving me absolutely BATTY, so I’m going to write and try to get my mind off of things until I have more information.
Remember when I said I was going to make a goal to stay off of Diet Coke, caffeine, carbonation, and aspartame until I was finished with The Messiah?
I DID IT.
I didn’t cheat even once. I didn’t even take Excedrin.
After my performance, I was STARVING. (Performing takes a lot out of you.) I went to dinner with my hubs and some friends. After thinking about it for a minute, I ordered a Diet Coke. I had had a really stressful, shitty day and I had turned away from it so many times in the past, I just wanted one. The last time I had soda was weeks before and knowing it was going to be a long time without it, I made the most of it.
See?
So?
I got one. With Lime. Mmmm….
I was so happy when it came out.
“HELLO, LOVER! Let us go into a dark corner and make sweet, sweet love.”
Even the condensation on the outside of the glass tasted yummy.
However, when push came to shove and I really looked at taking a sip of something that I had stayed away from for so long, I really hesitated. It was almost scary, actually. “Will? Won’t I? I’m scared! Hold me!”
I hemmed and hawed for about 2 minutes. Finally, I took a sip…
“DEEEEELICOUS!” It was almost an orgasmic little party in my mouth. (I cringe at the pervy Google searches this will produce.)
Afterglow. Sigh…
So, there it is. I imbibed in “The Dark Waters” once again.
Thing is? While I liked it, I barely finished my one drink and I used to go through at least three of these puppies in a meal.Besides proving to myself that I could actually give up a huge obsession in my life and not die, my main goal in going without it for so many weeks was to break the “Chain Drinking” habit that I’ve had. I wanted to be able to have Diet Coke be a “Treat” instead of a NEED.
I am also going to try to stick to being caffeine-free. Luckily, caffeine-free sodas are plentiful in Utah, so I will always try to go that option first and stick to smaller sized sodas instead of my usual 44 oz. size.
If I am thirsty enough for a 44 oz, I’ll stick with water or SoBe Lean.
Thanks for listening to me drone on about this trivial nonsense. I feel better and it got my mind off of things for a little bit.
I’m happy I have a place to go.
Stumble it!
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I have to say that REAL Coke is my sweet nectar from the gods. In fact, I think I’m going to go make out with one right now. P.S. I.am.proud.of.you!
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Very proud of you!
How did the performance go?
Gretchen’s last blog post..Just another manic Monday.
Congratulations on making it to the goal of The Messiah. After 13 years of not imbibing in anything on the “list”, I am happy to announce I enjoy the finest of wines and of course the warm rich taste of organically grown coffee beans. Hmmmmm (please insert healthy tone of sarcasm here) perhaps my recent change in quality of life has caused me to be smite down with ill health??? (tilting head) I wonder if I should compose a post of on the choices of imbibing in joyful pursuits and the consequences therein????
4’s last blog post..And now back to the wall….
I myself used to be an at-least-one-coke-a-day type of girl. Now I’ll have maybe 1-3 per week, with 2 being the most likely. They are much more special when you don’t have them very much.
I’m thinking about limiting myself even more, because all the exercising I’m doing at the gym isn’t giving me the fat loss results I want. So more diet tweaking is in order.
For some reason, I am greatly relieved to hear you enjoyed your return to DC. I was somewhat afraid that you’d say it was a disappointment. What’s wrong with me?
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Oh, DC. How do I love thee? Let me count the ways…
Except I don’t have time for that.
I loved the progressive shots ;)
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I had to give up coke as a necessity about 7 years ago. That was when I first became as SAHM and we were broke as all get out that coke became a treat out of necessity. Ha!
Even when money got better, I never went back to having them every day. I like them as a treat. Besides, the carbonation makes me fart. (Had to add that for the google pervs)
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i don’t care what anyone says, i’m glad you’re back on the sauce. LOL.
i know – such a good friend i am. but to be clear, i never supported you quitting diet coke. ;) ever. (i am, however, glad you achieved your goal…)
if comment luv doesn’t work for me this time, i am SO done with effing comment luv.
I’m horribly addicted to Diet Coke!! HORRIBLY!
I applaud your fast :)
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Hey, all things in moderation, right? I’m pretty sure that’s what the prophets say, isn’t it? lol Good on ya! Well done in the performance (wish I could have seen it. I love the Messiah.), and a hard-earned treat never goes amiss.
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I have to say, I have tremendous respect for any person, male or female, who can double fist the DC. {polite applause} Kudos are in order, to be sure.
P.S. Does this mean I can start smoking again? What, does “solidarity” mean NOTHING to you?
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The pictures really add to the post. ;)
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Fun pictures. Where were you eating, was that in town?
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ok, so i’m testing the fracking comment luv out again. feel free to delete this dang comment. Oh.My.Heck!!
LOL. Good for you, making it through! And the pictures are great!
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Oh you’ll be an inspiration to me yet. I need to quit the dark waters. I do. I really do.
But I love them so…
MammaLoves’s last blog post..Got a Cork?
This post pretty much made me pee myself, especially the HILARIOUS photos. Congrats for making it so long off of DC and now knowing that you CAN do it!
And now I have to go to the bathroom.
Doug’s last blog post..And Doug is off to…
You are so damn cute.
But I have to tell you…..
OH MY GOD YOU LICKED THE OUTSIDE OF A GLASS AT A RESTAURANT. Please promise me you won’t do that again. Ever.
I have worked in the restaurant industry for my whole life and the one thing I tell my loved ones (and bloggers I love) is to NEVER LICK THE OUTSIDE OF A GLASS BECAUSE OH MY GOD THAT SUCKER WOULD SPARKLE LIKE A COMFORTER FROM A SHITTY HOTEL UNDER A BLACK LIKE ON AN EPISODE OF DATELINE.
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OMG?!
Am I going to get leprosy of the tongue or rabies or something?????
I’ve waited tables for years, but didn’t notice anything weird with them.
(Although I would STRONGLY suggest never pissing off your server. Ehem.)
I am uber impressed that you met your goal. Any tips? Because I find giving up cola incredibly hard to do, even with the help of Excedrin.
Also dying to know how much weight you lost giving up Diet Coke.
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I actually gained weight. (Blush)
I and my mouth were really bored.
One of the reasons I am drinking it (occasionally as a treat)again.
You are so cute.
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You are too dang cute – I’m super jealous of your hair.
I love those pictures, too.
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I so relate to all of this. I’ve told you before about my passionate love for Vanilla Coke. Only I was forced to give it up when they stopped making it. It’s back now, but I make it a super special treat for myself.
Right now I am guzzling Diet Dr Pepper Cherry Chocolate and I know I need to stop that too….but…it just seems so…hard!
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I totally quit drinking soda for about 4 months and when I was staying at my parents, my dad so kindly picked me up a Diet Pepsi, b/c he thought that was what I was drinking. I cracked it open and took a swig. And I didn’t care for it! I could hardly believe it myself!
Well, somewhere along the line since then I got hooked on Wild Cherry Diet Pepsi, but have weened myself off of that as well. Almost. I do endulge in the occasional one oh- and Fresca is awesome as well. I try to drink cheap off brand crystal lite as my water alternative now.
The hard thing is- the acid feeds my tumor, so I shouldn’t have soda often, but when I am trying to lose weight, it reeeeally helps!
Oh, and I think it may be time you took off the diet coke can down there- you aren’t fueled my Diet Coke anymore! Go you!
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“my” i ment BY!
charli’s last blog post..The Day is Just Not For Parents of Young Children
I ‘ment’ MEANT! I must stop now- not thinking clearly- sorry
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Hee – I love the pictures!
Way to go on sticking to your goal!
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I’m really proud of you…and those pictures of you and your lover are great…
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You’re my hero. If only I could do the same thing with all sweets. I guess chosing just one thing would make it more achievable, but I don’t have JUST ONE! *sigh* That’s ok. Me and my muffin top are fabulous.
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