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A conversation with myself

August 25, 2007

This is ridiculous! Just let me wait until I get HOME to take the test! I have done some very weird things in my life, but taking a pregnancy test in the ladies room at WALMART???? Would you really want me to begin a pregnancy like this? What if the Karma from it causes me to birth the next Britney Spears?!

“Will you stop letting your imagination run away with you? I think you should just find out NOW. Who cares if you’re in a store. Peeing is peeing, right? This way, if it’s positive you can buy something cute in pink and blue to surprise Jonathan with”

True. But, still…It’s so tacky. Besides, don’t you think that I should wait until I’m at least a week late to take this? Maybe I’m overreacting? It’s barely been five days.

“Oh, come on, you wimp. Just do it. The suspense is killing us! You’ve only been this late five times in your life and THREE of them resulted in a baby. Think of how emotional you’ve been about everything because you’ve keeping this to yourself! Put everyone out of their misery already!”

Fine, then. Stop bitching, I’ll do it, Ok? The things I do for you! Jeesh! Just wait a minute…Hold on…

“Well?! What does it say?”

Nope.

“I’m sorry.”

Oh, it’s fine! Really it is!! It isn’t like we were trying to get pregnant, or anything. It would have been unplanned and such bad timing! Even though meeting her made me really want to put ‘Palm trees” on the top of a little girls head and just because I cannot stop thinking about the sheer cuteness of this post doesn’t mean I wanted to have another baby right NOW. With all the diapers and no sleep and crying? I’m probably not up for it anyway. It’s been five years since I’ve been pregnant. And then there is the age space that would be between them. Christopher is 8! What would we do for space with another little one? We’re in a really tiny house and our move is still probably a couple years off. I also have such a hard time being pregnant. I’d have to do daily injections into my abdomen, I have some health problems that would make it tricky. My two nieces just had babies and they need a lot of help right now, so really, truly, it’s fine! I’m fine!

“You are? Really?”

Yup!

“Ok, but I need to tell you that you’re getting mascara-blackened tear drops and snot all over your white t-shirt.”

Oh.

“Friend?”

Yes?

“You wanna go get an “I’m fine” Diet Coke with me?”

You always know what I need. Thank you.

“Anytime, my friend. Anytime.”

24 Comments »

  1. applesonastick says:

    awww….I’m sorry things didn’t work out this month.

    “Trying” is always lots of fun, so think of all the fun you can have next month?!

    August 25th, 2007 at 6:06 pm

  2. Sharon says:

    I know the feeling… over and over… but I’m glad that you’re OK with the results this time.

    {{{HUGS}}}

    August 25th, 2007 at 7:46 pm

  3. hairyshoefairy says:

    (((hugs)))

    August 25th, 2007 at 7:50 pm

  4. Charli says:

    OH! You are SOOO ready to have a baby! EEEEK! So happy that you are ready! The stuff that you listed as negative will ALWAYS be there! Go for it! Time for you and Jon to make a baby! Woohoo! That’s the enjoyable part ;)

    Now I will mind my own business. Right after I send you some really cute pics of Hali to give you a little “push”…

    August 25th, 2007 at 8:38 pm

  5. Angella says:

    I know all about the “I’m fine” Diet Coke (applies to many areas of my life).

    Big hugs to you :)

    August 25th, 2007 at 10:08 pm

  6. glittersmama says:

    Negatives suck. One of my least favorites was in the bathroom at Macaroni Grill. Sometimes you just can’t wait to get home.

    August 25th, 2007 at 11:19 pm

  7. coolbeans says:

    Well, I can tell you how to start every post if you want to make sure I click through in under half a second.

    August 26th, 2007 at 2:40 am

  8. kip says:

    petty comment to make to a woman who is sad about not being pregnant.

    August 26th, 2007 at 3:36 am

  9. Amber says:

    Man, you have been through a lot lately. It’s funny the wave of emotions that go through with anything related to pregnancy. Hang in there….

    August 26th, 2007 at 9:07 am

  10. Holly says:

    :hugs: That’s all I got my dear Loralee.

    August 26th, 2007 at 12:39 pm

  11. MacKenzie says:

    I’ve been there. It is amazing how sad you can be when you get the result that your brain says you want.

    August 26th, 2007 at 3:18 pm

  12. kip says:

    sent out an email. you know why.

    August 26th, 2007 at 3:30 pm

  13. little miss says:

    I’m sooo glad you and I have the same conversations with ourselves…

    August 26th, 2007 at 6:29 pm

  14. Alecia says:

    Hugs. Hugs. Hugs. (Will the USPS ship those? Or FedEx?)

    Can I say that I’m excited for you guys, though? I’m so curious about a third for us and if we did, well, then it would be the same difference in age that yours are and I want to live vicariously through you right now, ok?

    You’re an amazing mom already and I’m sure that will only be magnified if you decide to add another to the family. :)

    August 26th, 2007 at 8:50 pm

  15. jess says:

    girl. you know i love you. i know you’ve been through a lot.

    jacob is 8. you couldn’t pay me to have another kid!!! OMG!

    however..i DO realize your circumstances and mine are NOT similar. you do what makes you happy…

    xoxo

    August 26th, 2007 at 9:49 pm

  16. Bridge says:

    Wow… this would scare the crap out of me. /breathes…

    August 26th, 2007 at 11:43 pm

  17. Rachel says:

    Hugs. Emailing you.

    August 27th, 2007 at 8:46 am

  18. holli says:

    Okay, I was going to go all into my feelings about having another child here.. and decided that probably isn’t a good idea.

    Whether it happens or it doesn’t - it will be what is supposed to be. I just about freaked because I couldn’t tell - I read ahead to get the definitive answer and it looked like you were - I got excited.. and then saw everyone saying you weren’t.

    I just want us to be happy and have drama-free (no, what would we blog about) relatively “okay” lives. Whatever you want - that’s what I want.

    Hugs!!

    August 27th, 2007 at 9:16 am

  19. Julie says:

    I have been there many times. i know how you feel. Just think how happy you will be when you get that postive test. Lots of love and luck as you try for another little one. When the times comes, may God bless you and the baby.

    I am sorry I have not been reading or responding to your blog as much as I would like to be. Life has been crazy. I just wish I has as good at keeping my blog going as you are all the time, no matter what. I love coming here. Take care.

    August 27th, 2007 at 9:33 am

  20. coolbeans says:

    My comment was not meant the way “kip” apparently took it.

    August 27th, 2007 at 6:19 pm

  21. kip says:

    coolbeans-hey,i’m sorry. i thought you meant that she turned you off buy taking her test at walmart and so you stopped reading.

    i get it now and i apologize.

    August 27th, 2007 at 8:35 pm

  22. loralee says:

    Thank you to everyone who gave me kind emails, comments and phone calls. I am feeling better, despite cramping (Yup. Started).

    I know that I want another baby. It’s just that given the last experience it is pretty daunting. I was sort of hoping that the decision wouldn’t be up to me but would just happen.

    I know that it will happen when it’s right.

    Loves and hugs back to all you fabulous and wonderful people. :)

    August 27th, 2007 at 10:22 pm

  23. SparklieSunShine says:

    ((hugs))

    The ending of this post was so cute by the way. It reminds me of conversations I have with myself sometimes when I’m upset.

    You’re amazing, Loralee

    August 29th, 2007 at 7:55 am

  24. Michelle says:

    I’m so sorry–and it’s not as if you can expect any sympathy from the Walmart door greeters after that kind of news either. Well at least we’ll know what you’ll be up to over the next few months.

    August 30th, 2007 at 12:14 am

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