As part of his daily homework, Christopher had to make up sentences to use the words “Son” and “Sun”.
No adult should have to ever have this sentence be a part of their life, let alone a second grader.
You don’t know the six shades of suck I feel right now.
I know I had no control over Matthew dying, and that I can’t keep everything sad away from my kids, but I thought that I was doing fairly well at not being one of those bereaved parents that makes everything about their loss. Seeing this makes me feel like I have not only failed at that, but I’ve also failed at protecting the children I have left.
It just makes it worse that I am trapped in my tiny house because both of our vehicals were destroyed this week. I can’t even go and get a Diet Coke and chocolate to make myself feel better.
What is a girl to do?
I guess it’s true. Necessity is the mother of invention.
I am so sorry. This aspect is one of the reasons I knew that I could feel safe talking to you. You understand how awful life can be.
It is sad when kids can’t be shielded, but don’t let it overwhelm you.
Eat all the frosting you want, Ms. Tunes. You’ve had a hellaweek.
Kris
Reading that sentence just tore at my heart…I wish I could just put my arms around you and give you the tightest hug possible…from one who knows what it is like to lose a son…
Loralee (And Sharon) I am sorry for both of your losses. I suppose that it is little things that hurt all the time.
I also feel bad because your photo made me laugh! I was sniveling and then the frosting with the spoon it it made me laugh out loud. I suppose *Or HOPE* that was your intent because you are wonderful that way. It is like Steel Magnolias, crying one minute, laughing another.
K–
oh this broke my heart. kris is right, eat the frosting. thinking of you…
Real sorry about your son.
The only reason that he wrote it was because it was fresh in his mind. Stupid kids are easy to raise. Its the smart ones that test you. You are blessed with smart kids and you are right to not shield them from death and pain. It is important that they know what it is and how to deal with it. You are doing an awesome job raising your boys.
Mr. E
Frosting fight anyone?
L,
I do not believe you failed anyone – especially your kids. From everything I’ve read – and my intuition – you have made the life of your children full of reality and adventure.
You cannot protect your kids from everything. You also cannot know or control how your kids will go through the greiving process.
I’m not counselor, but, I do wonder if this is just one of Christopher’s ways of greiving.
You are a wonderful Mom – you never gave up on your kids.
Always remember the love that flows between you and your sons.
With Love, Me
I agree with Mr. E, LL! Your little one is just putting down on paper something that he has experienced. He is smart. He is aware of what happened and your a good Mama for not sheltering him and being the kind of Mom where he feels it’s safe to express what he feels. Yeah. And sometimes it sucks! Love you!
Oh man that would send me right into the frosting too. But I agree that it seems like he is just aware and smart. I am so sorry for your loss-those few words give no insight to the depth of love I am feeling for you and your family right now. I found your blog through a comment and then in my rush I only saw your sp the last time I visited. Just now coming back I learned of your tragedy.
Love and kisses to you
I hope tomorrow brings fixed cars and chocolate:)
Thanks everyone. I know posts like this are tough to read. Usually people don’t know what to say and just say nothing, so I am beyond grateful for the comments of comfort.
Especially you, Sharon. From one mom who understands to another.
Suck. I’m so sorry that happened. I’ll bet, though, that you’re doing the best job possible. Your kids always seem so happy, so I don’t think you have to worry about them or their relationship with you. I hope I’m not overstepping my bounds, but I think you’re doing a fantastic job, from what I can tell.
And of course, when chocolate is not available, frosting is always the next best thing.
And is it just me, or has there been an awful lot of ‘suck’ around here lately? :(